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Funny Weird Day

Today it is an extremely weird and funny day. I had a quarrel with my mum over money; she didn’t want me to travel to Singapore through Malaysia as it is dangerous at night and the flight is at 10.30 pm.Eventually she bought me an one-way ticket to a direct flight with stopover which ended in Singapore itself.

In the afternoon, I went with my niece and nephew to the mall in Gadong, which is the center of the capital’s activities in Brunei. We sang four songs at the arcade K-box, starting with S.H.E’s One Blink to Ten Thousand Years, J.J’s Killer, and I taught them to sing Butterfly by Hu Yanbin and J.J’s Mummy. Then, we stayed at the arcade for a while as my nephew wanted to play games, and we went to have fries and waffles at the food court. Following that, we walked around the mall for a while and then we went to a cybercafe to play games. I am terrible with games, so I experimented with the cybercafe’s webcam for a while. The funniest thing was that I webcammed with one of my bf’s friends for less than five minutes, my niece said his teeth were nice, and then I ran out of sufficient time.

All sorts of things

All sorts of things happen in my life. Firstly, the most wonderful thing of all was when I started my story with Zhilong Chen, my online buddy who’s an IT student in Genetic School, Beijing University of Business. Then, a lot of things happened shortly after that.

Exams are coming in two weeks’ time.

I lost weight, finally, after weeks and weeks of procrastination. And of course, I have “friends” to help me with this.


I bought novels.

My classmate did a tarot reading for me, and it has affected me much.

I realized how much Zhilong is like me when I’m 21. Being hurt, under peer pressure, having others say things behind his back.

I don’t know whether to trust card readings or not. Miracles happen, but I believe I am still in charge of my own life, and who I choose to be with. When I left my ex-boyfriends, I was only hoping for a better future. Given the chance, I will not let him go this time. Chenjie said I’m silly to trust my life with cards, but I am just afraid.

A girl with green hair in the MRT

Greenhaired "Cosplay" Girl

 

On Being "Not Pretty"

I have received the advice “you ain’t pretty, so stop thinking you are”. Well, regarding this, I don’t know how to respond.. Perhaps it’s time to wake up from my dreams. And, to achieve something else in my life since I don’t have the physical beauty or attractiveness that other girls do. 

Stop believing in true love?

I guess that is one option. If I am capable of handling my own life, I don’t need a guy. Basically, guys think I am not pretty. So I don’t need one at all to give me fake concern full-time.
This will mean the female lead characters in my novel are going to change. I.e. from pretty to un-pretty. At least, somehow, they are strong and courageous in their own ways. And uh, happy-go-lucky, and wacky. Unfortunately, they are never capable of self-control, loving oneself, or protective/conservative. ‘coz that’s me.